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45
minutes more and I’ll be sayin’ hi to 2006!

       New year’s resolutions aren’t the only thing in
my mind as I approach the coming year…I’ve also thought about going through a
list of the things I’ve learned, the stuff I realized, bits I’ve discovered
about me, about life, about love and about anything under the sun…anything at
all…

       Here goes the list(and see how random they
are..hehe!):

–> time eases the pain but doesn’t heal the wound

–> we don’t have to be with someone palpably to care for him/her
greatly

–> you cant help other people solve their problem if they
themselves are not willing to solve it

–> it is very very important to love what you’re doing

–> it isn’t very good to linger on the past(but it’s very good to
learn from past mistakes)…it’s good to think about the future…but it’s much
better to live for the moment

–> I am capable of great unconditional love

–> it is so damned difficult to shift abruptly from vacation mode
to study mode(grrr!!)

–> with acceptance comes total happiness

–> making someone happy makes me three times happier

–> you can dictate your mind but never…never your heart

–> I have got to get rid of procrastination! (I reeeeeally really
should!!!)

–> Everything happens for a reason. We don’t necessarily have to
know and understand the reason but there really is. It’s for God to know…we just
have to trust Him on that. And when we do, we would be more at ease

–> love truly hurts

–> a problem won’t be a problem unless you turn it into a problem

–> reality hurts even more

p.s.
will think of more…
Ciao, for the mean time…
hmm…*deep in thought*

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Timecheck…it’s exactly 12:00 a.m. +800 timezone!!! MAke some
noiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiseeee~!!!!!! Happy neeeeeeeew yeeeeeeear!!

    8 more hours and it’ll be twenty-o-six(in the
+800 time zone , that is..)…

    brand new day, brand new year!!!

    Whew…time flies awfully fast…

    It was quite a  memorable
2005 for me…I was discovering a lot about people around me, about myself as
an apprentice in the world of grown-ups, and about life, in general. Some
discoveries were good…some weren’t…but the thing is, I learned a lot…and
I’m growing as a person. I hope to grow more in the coming year. And I wish
everyone a happy new year!!! Ad astra per aspera! God bless!

When the Wrong One Loves You Right
Celine Dion

  I was searching around Limewire trying to look for

live performances

when
I came across this file entitled "Celine Dion with Destiny’s Child -
Emotions & When the Wrong One Loves You Right - Live". The first
song title(Emotions), I knew…but I didn’t know about the second one.
After the file finished downloading, I immediately played the 65-MB
*.mpg clip and feasted on the live performance by two of my fave
artists. The first song they performed as mentioned earlier, was Emotions, a remake
originally done by The Beegees. After the first song, came When the Wrong One Loves You Right.
It’s the first time fo me to hear this Celine Dion track and I when the
first hitting of the drums came, I knew I’d like the rest of which that
I’d hear. It’s a beautiful track. Not only because I could relate
to it(ehem…heheh!!) but also because it has this wonderful message that tells us we
don’t need to have our so-called "right one" to be happy. When we
love, we just can’t run, can’t hide and can’t say no to the feeling…even if we think it’s the wrong one we’re loving. Fact is…there’s no right one or wrong one…when it comes to love. Hmm…just a thought…

    Anyways…I’m right now watching the rest of the
video clips that I’ve downloaded. I just watched a live performnce of Natural Woman
by no less than Aretha Franklin, Gloria Estefan, Shania Twain, Celine
Dion, Mariah Carey together with the song’s writer, Carole King. Boy,
it’s great to watch the pros get together on stage. Whew! Watching them
never fails to amaze me greatly…they give me goosebumps all the time.

    It’s always been my hobby to watch live
performances. It is in these situations wherein genuineness of talents
are shown(not in music videos…that’s just edited, the artist
lip-syncs and all). I’m so much into award shows or anniversary
specials because it is in these types of shows wherein arrays of
amazing performances from super talented artists are shown.

    Hmm…so much for the blah blah’s…hehe..I’ll end
this here…enjoy the song..the title is linked to a file which happens
to be the song itself…LoL!

    Au revoir! Enjoy!

    There’s a lot
that I want so much to do but I just can’t. Have you ever had that feeling
wherein you just can’t do something you want to or have to do? Procrastination,
as we all call it. I hate to admit it but yes, I am often bothered with this
deferment. It is so ironic because I am the type of person who doesn’t want to
not do anything. I get frustrated a lot because my day often ends up with me
not being able to accomplish what I wish to accomplish. I would love it if not
a second of my day is wasted…that would really really satisfy me…but
ironically, all I do is sit on my ass and stay in front of my PC doing
practically nothin’ (of course it isn’t really ‘nothin’…I’m just exaggerating
a bit…LoL!).

    But seriously, though…most of the times, I am distracted
from what I’m supposed to do carry out in one day especially if I know within
me that I have a lot of time to do it.

    I think I just got myself a new year’s
resolution…."overcome procrastination"! It would be one heck of an
effort that I’d have to exert. But I’m determined to work it out. Welcome
twenty-o-seven, goodbye procrastination…how I truly truly wish it’d be like
that for me!

    Merry Christmas, peepz…

…and a

Joyous Year ahead of y’all!!!


 God bless  

    Just got home from the mall and guess what…I just
happened to watch the The Manila Philharmonic Orchestra perform live.
They
were having this show at the arena. This is the first time I’ve seen
them perform live. I often see them on TV and have always been a fan. I
wasn’t really aware that they
were there. We were having a meal at KFC and at the midst of our
savoring
the food I realized that I was listening to very good music and so I
asked Shamz, who was with me…"Is that live?". She was like, "Huh…if
that’s live, then they’re really really good". So she checked out the
backdrop and read it to me.."It says..Manila..Phil..uh..Philharmonic
Orchestra..". And I was like, "Waaaaahhhht?!? Are you kiddin me, let’s
get out of here and watch em!". Hehe! And so, we did.

It’s pretty hard to just sit there and do nothing
but sometimes all you gotta do and all you could
do is just sit and watch the show.

It’s as if you’re the film director and you’re
deprived of the power to mandate on how you
believe the film would best be…and that makes
you practically useless…

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Exams are finally over. I’m now on the first 8 hours of my Christmas
vacation. And I’m contemplating on how I’d be spending the rest of it.

There’s a lot going on in my mind right now. Lots of emotions are
reeling within me. Irony seems to be the exact definition of how these
feelings are.
I’m feeling happy, regretful, flattered, confused, honored, amused,
excited, depressed, helpless and concerned. Now, isn’t that a bunch of
ironies?

It’s just one of those days wherein you realize that you can’t have all
the happiness in the world…you just can’t. I have long since realized
and known that fact. But I just wish that I could choose what I could
be happy about and what I could be sad about. I simply wish so but I
just couldn’t. And that’s the thing that I’m right now trying to get
the hang of.

Life is full of choices, I know. Happiness is a choice. I was beggining
to think otherwise when I began to realize…that no matter how much
downturns are thrown our way, no matter how miserable we may believe we
are…we could still hold one thing dear…and that is acceptance.
Acceptance of the trials thrown our way, acceptance of any misfortune
we may encounter.

Choosing to accept, I believe, would mean choosing to be happy. If we
embrace the fact that life isn’t a bed of roses, then we choose
happiness over misery.

I would not be such a hypocrite and say without any restraint, that I
choose to accept that fact. But I am also with arms wide open…and I
pray that someday, I would be able to embrace such verity
wholeheartedly. I pray that I would have the heart to choose happiness
over misery no matter what disheartening fact would face me. With a
strong determination plus prayers, nothing is ever impossible…the
formula is just too strong to ever be wrong.

That is it for now.

Merry Christmas everybody…
Wishin you an accepting heart and a happy life!

It’s been a day of awfully nerve-racking
experiences! We are under a lot of pressure coz there’s only one week
left before prelim exams come. We haven’t had classes for several days
due to many institutional activities(particularly the Centennial
celebration of our university). And so therefore, we are now coping up
with the classes we missed.

    Goodness! Just imagine…an array of lessons..1-week
old…being stuffed into your brain. If I were a stack program, I’d
report a STACK OVERFLOW ERROR! Hehehe! It really is a lot of pressure.
I guess that’s what we get for the veeeery looong weekend(call it
extended weekend) we had last week.

    Like I said, it’s been an awfully stressful
day…and very agitative, too. You see..I got very(as in veeeeeery) low
in one of the quizzes we had..a major-subject quiz, not to mention. I
did study…but I was mental blocked..totally blocked during the quiz.
When our professor threw out the first question, I was like…"Did I
ever study that part?". The answer is, of course, a big yes. But it was
like I had an amnesiac moment and I totally forgot everything! The
second part of the quiz(solving problems) could’ve rescued my
predictably small score…but still, I was mental blocked…I lacked
some solutions so my answers were practically useless. Tsk tsk…

    I don’t know if I should blame myself coz I wasn’t
at all careless…I did study..maybe not that meticulously but I
believe it was enough to give me a fair score. It’s just one of those
times when you’re just..well..blank..you know. Hehe! This is by far the
worst attack of this sickness which I have long since declared to be
mental block syndrome..hihihi…(I wrote a lot about it in my July 29..4:12 and July 29..7:24 blog entries). 

    Well, well..there’s really no point in getting
distressed over what has already happened. After all, I can’t undo it
anymore. Even if I grieve(grieve jud?LoL!) about it, what’s done is
done. No heartache and mourning could raise my score..hehehe. I’m just
writing about it so I’d be relieved and be more convinced that I really
shouldn’t worry anymore…coz again and again…what’s done is done and
couldnt be undone(pardon my being too uh..homonymic..LoL!).

    Whew! That was quite releasing.

    Need a good laugh? Check this video
out. It’ll be one heck of a bone-tickling experience. Yeah, yeah, I
know..I’m tickling your bones, I mean..your fancy..ahihi! Just watch
and have fun. But before you click the link…put o handz togetha for
Mistah Beggah Bone ..woooooohh! Beggin’ for money has never been this
‘bone-ticklish’. So…are y’all ready to laugh? Position mouse…right index finger ready…and,
*click! Enjoy!

    I’ve seen calculators in different forms and in
different brands but it’s my first time to encounter a "Lifeline
calculator"…a calculator that actually tells you how long you will
live??? Hmmm….take the test and calculate your lifeline right here. I did so…just for the heck of it…hehe! Have fun!

p.s.
I calculated my lifeline and it says I’ll live to be 90. Whew! I don’t
have until 72 years and 2 months left to find out if the
calculation is accurate. Hehe!