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It’s pretty hard to just sit there and do nothing
but sometimes all you gotta do and all you could
do is just sit and watch the show.

It’s as if you’re the film director and you’re
deprived of the power to mandate on how you
believe the film would best be…and that makes
you practically useless…

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Exams are finally over. I’m now on the first 8 hours of my Christmas
vacation. And I’m contemplating on how I’d be spending the rest of it.

There’s a lot going on in my mind right now. Lots of emotions are
reeling within me. Irony seems to be the exact definition of how these
feelings are.
I’m feeling happy, regretful, flattered, confused, honored, amused,
excited, depressed, helpless and concerned. Now, isn’t that a bunch of
ironies?

It’s just one of those days wherein you realize that you can’t have all
the happiness in the world…you just can’t. I have long since realized
and known that fact. But I just wish that I could choose what I could
be happy about and what I could be sad about. I simply wish so but I
just couldn’t. And that’s the thing that I’m right now trying to get
the hang of.

Life is full of choices, I know. Happiness is a choice. I was beggining
to think otherwise when I began to realize…that no matter how much
downturns are thrown our way, no matter how miserable we may believe we
are…we could still hold one thing dear…and that is acceptance.
Acceptance of the trials thrown our way, acceptance of any misfortune
we may encounter.

Choosing to accept, I believe, would mean choosing to be happy. If we
embrace the fact that life isn’t a bed of roses, then we choose
happiness over misery.

I would not be such a hypocrite and say without any restraint, that I
choose to accept that fact. But I am also with arms wide open…and I
pray that someday, I would be able to embrace such verity
wholeheartedly. I pray that I would have the heart to choose happiness
over misery no matter what disheartening fact would face me. With a
strong determination plus prayers, nothing is ever impossible…the
formula is just too strong to ever be wrong.

That is it for now.

Merry Christmas everybody…
Wishin you an accepting heart and a happy life!

It’s been a day of awfully nerve-racking
experiences! We are under a lot of pressure coz there’s only one week
left before prelim exams come. We haven’t had classes for several days
due to many institutional activities(particularly the Centennial
celebration of our university). And so therefore, we are now coping up
with the classes we missed.

    Goodness! Just imagine…an array of lessons..1-week
old…being stuffed into your brain. If I were a stack program, I’d
report a STACK OVERFLOW ERROR! Hehehe! It really is a lot of pressure.
I guess that’s what we get for the veeeery looong weekend(call it
extended weekend) we had last week.

    Like I said, it’s been an awfully stressful
day…and very agitative, too. You see..I got very(as in veeeeeery) low
in one of the quizzes we had..a major-subject quiz, not to mention. I
did study…but I was mental blocked..totally blocked during the quiz.
When our professor threw out the first question, I was like…"Did I
ever study that part?". The answer is, of course, a big yes. But it was
like I had an amnesiac moment and I totally forgot everything! The
second part of the quiz(solving problems) could’ve rescued my
predictably small score…but still, I was mental blocked…I lacked
some solutions so my answers were practically useless. Tsk tsk…

    I don’t know if I should blame myself coz I wasn’t
at all careless…I did study..maybe not that meticulously but I
believe it was enough to give me a fair score. It’s just one of those
times when you’re just..well..blank..you know. Hehe! This is by far the
worst attack of this sickness which I have long since declared to be
mental block syndrome..hihihi…(I wrote a lot about it in my July 29..4:12 and July 29..7:24 blog entries). 

    Well, well..there’s really no point in getting
distressed over what has already happened. After all, I can’t undo it
anymore. Even if I grieve(grieve jud?LoL!) about it, what’s done is
done. No heartache and mourning could raise my score..hehehe. I’m just
writing about it so I’d be relieved and be more convinced that I really
shouldn’t worry anymore…coz again and again…what’s done is done and
couldnt be undone(pardon my being too uh..homonymic..LoL!).

    Whew! That was quite releasing.

    Need a good laugh? Check this video
out. It’ll be one heck of a bone-tickling experience. Yeah, yeah, I
know..I’m tickling your bones, I mean..your fancy..ahihi! Just watch
and have fun. But before you click the link…put o handz togetha for
Mistah Beggah Bone ..woooooohh! Beggin’ for money has never been this
‘bone-ticklish’. So…are y’all ready to laugh? Position mouse…right index finger ready…and,
*click! Enjoy!

    I’ve seen calculators in different forms and in
different brands but it’s my first time to encounter a "Lifeline
calculator"…a calculator that actually tells you how long you will
live??? Hmmm….take the test and calculate your lifeline right here. I did so…just for the heck of it…hehe! Have fun!

p.s.
I calculated my lifeline and it says I’ll live to be 90. Whew! I don’t
have until 72 years and 2 months left to find out if the
calculation is accurate. Hehe!

    Was I going too far? Was I on the verge on acting on my feelings? Was it gonna lead on to nothing anyway? Was God telling me to wake up? Or rather…did God just give me a slap on the face(if He ever does) saying…"Here now…it’s time to snap back to reality, my child…you’ve had enough..".

    A lotta questions are running in my mind right now. It’s hard coz it’s even more baffling than any programming assignment that you could sit up to in front of the monitor and eventually figure out come 2 or so hours. These are the type of questions which couldn’t be answered in just a snap. Ones that don’t just crack your brain…they crumble it to tiny bits. They don’t require 2 hours of figuring out. They require uhh..hmm…Honestly, I don’t know how long it would take me to answer these questions…coz in the first place, it would depend on whether or not I’d choose to answer them. And I am torn between these two decisions.

    See..if I choose to answer ‘em…I would have to jeopardize a lot of things. My integrity, for one(assuming I got one..Lol!) and my pride, as well. Once I choose to answer these questions, it would mean I’d have to go a bit astray of the things that I believe in…the principles I live up to, shall we say. I’d have to go out from the usual me…the don’t-ever-do-anything-that-would-get-you-into-any-sort-of-trouble me. I’d also be gambling my pride once I choose to push this through. Coz I wouldn’t know(I don’t even have concrete evidence) if I would really be able to prove something if I did take a chance on elucidating these uncertainties. And might I add that it would be a BIG gamble…a great risk…an enormous amount of me shall be wagered.

    On the other hand, if I choose NOT to answer the questions running in my mind, I might someday regret…I might, one day, be remorseful on what might’ve been..what could’ve been. Know what I mean? I fear that opting not to answer these questions might one day leave me devastated. I may be eaten by even bigger and more shattering questions like "Could there have been a…" or "Was there ever(no matter how little) ardor on those…" or worse, "Would I be happier if it were…?". Goodness! I wouldn’t want to get stuck with those questions ever! I’d rather be bombarded with an endless list of major-subjects requirements than face those it’s-too-late-to-answer-that questions. Dreadful!

    I’m really trying to figure it out. It is quite demanding of a stubborn daughter like me but right now, I’m asking for a lot of stuff from Him. And yes, one of those is guidance…enlightenment…a sort of ‘right mind’ to make me do the right thing.

    If you were in such situation, what would you do? Would you risk getting hurt and degraded? Or would you choose to live a lifetime of "so-called peacefulness" with haunting questions that you would never ever have the chance to answer?

    Time’s so
fast…pasukan nanaman this Monday. Seemed only yesterday when we were out in
the beach,my classmates and I, havin’ some DEstressing from the unbelievably
exhasuting and excruciating(over?wehehe!!) semester we all had. Cant believe
it’s been two weeks and two days since that
9-hours-of-pure-fun-and-forgetfulness transpired.

    Whew! Why is time in such a hurry,huh? I haven’t even had my
hair done yet..Lol!! (What am I heading to..a party?!) Yeah,
yeah..oftentimes,  I wanna think of going to school as going to a party so
it wouldn’t be so dreary or burdensome(pwede pala ung ganon,ano?..cge nlng
gud..hihihi!!!).

    Well, I’m powerless here..don’t have any time machine
whatsoever so I couldn’t really turn back the hands of time or make it move slower
so we’d have an extended break from school. Guess I just have tah go with the
freaky flow of life…school life…college life..hmm. Face it..live
it.."love" it. Hmm…now that’s not really a hard thing to do,isn’t
it?

    No, it isn’t. As long as you’re interested in what you
do…and as long as you got that powerful drive to reach that dream(whatever it
is)..you’d always be on the go….
Weeeheehee..I seem to need a lotta self-motivation here…(that’s quite
obvious,isn’t it?LoL!). Hmmm…so what’s motivating enough to enthuse me of the
idea of going back to school this Monday..mm…unsa ba..my super kalog
classmates and friends?? Haha! Yeah, that’s quite motivating..I miss them a
lot..life here at home is so opposite of the usual boisterous classroom setting
at school. (Grabe..boisterous man jud! Lol!) The only noisy thing around here
is this headset I have in my uh..head..and ears.

   
    So what else…what else could I possibly think of to
motivate myself,huh…hmm………*deep in thought*…….AHA!!! Baon!!!(now
I’m motivated!)…oh yes…why haven’t I though of that earlier..my daily
allowance..ain’t that motivation enough for any lazy, penniless
schoolgal-on-a-break just like me? Wahaha! Crazy! (but true!)

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    Wow…I can’t wait to go back to school na
grabe…*lightning…..BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM! Ngek!(Di pa gyud mutuo!Hihihi!)

Here I am once again trying to quench my relentless thirst for self-discovery. Took another of these blogthings tests…this one’s bout how I live my life…this what the test results gave me…

Hmm…I agree with some of these and disagree with the others…
On which ones is which, sa akin nlng un..heheh..

So, how do you live your life? Find out here.

Mine should be purple..and this blog isn’t..hehe.. 
But my other blog is.
It’s ok though, I like this just the way it is..
So, what color should your blog be? Find out below…but first, here’s mine…

                    What color should your blog or journal be?

What’s yours? Tell me bout it

WARNING: No other blog entry as nonsensical as
this!

    Hey,y’all…sup? What have y’all been up
to,huh?

    I’ve been reeeeally lazy lately…heheh…

    Hindi talaga..sa totoo lang
may namimiss naman talaga ako ngayon eh…**BOOOOOOMMMMM**…o ayan
nanaman..lumalakas pa ang ulan!! GRrrrrr!!

    Buhbyeeeeee…. Miss yah!

p.s.
DON’T SAY I DIDN’T
WARN YOU...

Here’s the hidden meaning of the name given to me by the two people who made my conception possible..did I really have to put it that way?LOL!!Wutever! Anyway, without much ado, here it is..the hidden meaning behind the name my parents gave me(heheh…there yah have it!)

Katherine Dacanay

You love to enjoy the material things in life and use your intelligence rather than brawn to achieve worldly success. Although quite retiring and cautious you have a confident manner and the ability to create concrete results with your ideas. A sharp mind, willingness to learn and detailed organisation means that nothing is left to chance as you progress towards your goals which are usually considerable.     

So…wanna know what’s your name’s hidden meaning,too? click here..have fun!